”You’re not normal,” my ex-friend said in disgust after finding out I’d left my German boyfriend after he found my ”overtime at work” was actually me visiting Berlin’s Gloryholes every night.
She was right. I knew I wasn’t like other girls for a hell of a long time, and my vicious determination to go as far down the Goon Hole as I could stood as a testament to that.
I’d kept detailed notes on the sexual escapades I’d experienced worldwide. I viewed the global world of sex and porn like an ambitious general sees a military map. I wanted to conquer it all.
Is it just sheer Goonery or something else? Well, if you’ve read my infamous book, you’ll know I was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) at uni. That explains a lot!
But it doesn’t explain everything. Autism is still, sadly, often misunderstood, and the crossovers it has with Gooning are impossible to ignore.
Today, in this autism porn crossover, I’m going to shed light on how ASD has contributed massively to my Gooning journey and allowed me to enjoy a wild sex life that many neurotypical people couldn’t dream of.
Autism, Sex, And Me
Growing up in Belfast, I wasn’t the most social girl. Despite lots of propositions, I only had one serious boyfriend. My family and a few friends used to call me ‘a quiet wee one’.
It was in university, in a drunken conversation with fellow freshers, that somebody asked if I was on the spectrum. The reason? I shared similar personality traits with their autistic brother.
I started to research intensely. He was right. I visited specialists, and it was confirmed. In my naivety, I felt like my world had collapsed. I didn’t know how to handle it.
My uni years were a lonely time. It was only when I graduated, started my career, and subsequently my debauched sex life that I began to accept ASD and view it in a positive light.
While it hasn’t been all smooth sailing, autism has had a tremendously positive impact on my sex and business life. Today, I will reveal some of the biggest ways it has changed things.
The World of Kink Boosted My Confidence Dramatically
Autism plagued my social skills and left me unable to read people well, not to mention navigate social situations. It left me feeling isolated, alone, and wondering where I fit in the world.
But as I slid into the world of kink, attending sex parties, swingers clubs, and the like, I found I was able to strike conversations with ease over common topics and a lust for learning.
I found kinksters some of the most welcoming people around who opened their arms to quirky personality traits rather than push them away, as so many other neurotypical people do.
As the months went by, I started feeling part of something and a desire to start mixing with people and being more social as I felt like I’d finally found my ”kin.”
A Drive for Perfection
It’s kind of ironic that one of my biggest sub-kinks is seeing the mess, debauchery, and leftover items from a truly sordid sex session, as I’m a stickler for order and perfection.
But my lust for order and perfection reveals itself in an entirely different way. I meticulously plan all of my sexual adventures and XXX plans, not to mention keep detailed records.
Yep, if you’ve ever fucked me or been pinned down and pounded by me, you’ll have been noted in my little black book that details every sordid adventure I’ve ever been on.
Whenever some seedy thought pops into my autistic mind, and it’s something I haven’t tried yet, I ensure that it’s noted down and planned out for the future.
The same goes for when I get a lover/s into my sex room. I assess their personality with military-grade precision and pen out what I plan to do to them to ensure they never forget it.
My Color-Coded Pleaser Heels: If This Isn’t Autism Porn, What Is?
Hell, I even color-code my fuck-me heels depending on what sexual debauchery I’m going to be indulging in on that day. Let me show you what I mean:
- Black For BDSM and the BNWO – The classic black Pleaser heel is a dynamic color that can mean two things. I’ll wear them if I’m having the honor of being bred by black cock, and I’ll equally slide into them if I’m planning on a BDSM session where they take a particularly sordid role in the world of female domination.
- Red for Anal Obliteration – I don’t let men fuck me in the ass unless they really mean it. If I don’t prolapse, then you can expect me to be so pissed off that I pin you down and ensure that at least you do. So, whenever I have anal debauchery planned, you can expect me to don my prolapse red heels!
- Pink for Submission – And there’s the classic Bimbo pink Pleaser heels. These are the shoes I wear when I want to play the brain-dead cock whore who fuels herself on cum. The mere sight of these shoes on my pretty little feet makes me want to drop into a squat, spread my legs, and offer my holes to any swinging dick within 100 miles.
- See-Through is the Nuclear Option – These are reserved for particular events, usually swingers parties and sex clubs or especially creampie gangbangs. The see-through heel represents I’m down for anything on offer, whether that’s pegging some poor fucker or spreading my thighs for men to cum inside of me. Nothing is off-limits.
Isn’t that a prime example of how my autism comes into play when I go out to play in my pleaser heels? I also have a particular obsession with them, which you can read about here.
My Observational Skills Are On Another Level
”How the hell do you remember all of this stuff?” my friend asked in disbelief as I reeled off even the tiniest details of last night’s gangbang, despite us both being heavily drunk.
For better or for worse, I have an incredible memory that leaves me remembering even the smallest incidents from a week to decades ago, and it’s all thanks to my autism.
With a memory like this and some wild observational skills, I can see the kind of things in both IRL sex and porn that others don’t, hence why my XXX writings have become so popular.
Where others see a dick slamming into a cunt, I see the beads of slit gush oozing down a veiny shaft as if it’s thanking the cock for being defiled.
Some people see a mere blowjob, but I see the cross-eyed expression on a woman’s face and the beads of juice oozing between her legs as though she has a G-spot in her throat as she cums from the mere sensation of being used like a human Fleshlight with touching her cunt.
My Autism and Hypersexuality Have Led to New Careers
While some Autistic people struggle to hold down careers because they’re neurodivergent, I am fortunate enough to say I had the opposite problem and bagged solid careers since leaving uni.
But with an intensely analytical mind, keen observation skills, and a vivid imagination that all comes from my ASD, I’ve found myself landing side jobs in various parts of the kink world.
In the past, I’ve been hired as a professional writer penning porn scripts, been recruited as a logistics manager for a gangbang party organizer, and found my place as a sex toy reviewer.
But, most importantly, my autism has played a massive part in being able to form and maintain Whoreuro magazine.
However, the latter wouldn’t be possible without my beloved like-minded readers, whom I adore greatly! Yeah, I’m talking about you, you gorgeously horny little fucker!
My Ability to Concentrate Sees Me Unleash Maximum Focus on Pleasure
Some find themselves in disbelief at how I can fuck for so long. I can ride a man’s cock in reverse cowgirl for as long as he can hold out and do the same when I’m pegging a cunt, too.
No, I’m not superwoman; I just adore repetition, and I can concentrate extremely well when it comes to delivering pleasure, both to myself and others.
If you’ve ever been lucky enough to see me cum, or have watched me strive to give you an orgasm you’ll never forget, you’ll know that I truly go into the zone to get what I want.
I can pound a slut’s ass like a traction engine when I’m in a pegging harness, and hands-free orgasms are my bread and butter.
And the same goes for when I’m taking dick myself. I know exactly which position to take and how to intensely concentrate on my pleasure to unleash sexual mayhem all over a fuck stick.
Autism in Woman Can Lead to a Wicked Imagination
”I think about you every time I cum in my wife,” one of my married lovers whispered in my ear, ”but it’s never the same.” Damn fuckin’ straight it isn’t; she’s neurotypical.
While it’s not hard to make a man cum; becoming the kind of imaginative whore whom he never forgets is something else entirely, and this is something autism comes in handy for.
Sometimes, even I baffle myself at some of the ideas that come out of my perverted mind during sex, and the shocked look on the faces of the people I’m using like sex toys confirms it.
From squirting whiskey out of my asshole into a man’s mouth to tying Gooner girls up in the ”Lion’s Den of Porn,” If you’ve read any of my true sex stories, you’ll know what I mean.
And, once again, I owe my autism diagnosis a lot of credit for my perverted imagination that knows no bounds.
Final Thoughts on Autism And Sex: You’re Not Alone
Since revealing I am on the spectrum, I’ve been contacted by countless Gooners and Goonettes who are also on it, and they’ve said it has been a huge relief to find this out.
After all, Pornosexuals, in general, tend to be hyper-observant individuals who see the side of porn that normies don’t, and it’s only natural that the lifestyle attracts a lot of autistic people.
As I bring this article to an end, I want to let you all know that you’re not alone, and if you ever feel you are, then you can rest assured that your autism can skyrocket your kinky life.
Here’s an idea. Overlap your autistic traits and see how they play a role in your Gooning and kink life, and start to identify how they make them stronger. Then, you’ll truly appreciate it.
And while some folks on the spectrum prefer to Goon alone, there’s a lot to be said for the social side that can come from mixing with fellow kinksters, and it’s something I highly recommend trying.